I sit and sip my Americano at the same Starbucks where Sumit and I checked the beta HCG report to confirm my pregnancy. There happens to be an interesting story before that big discovery. My patience wore off on the last morning of the 2WW and I did a pregnancy test using an insanely old pregnancy home test kit. It turned out to be negative and as heartbroken as I could be I called Sumit who asked me to turn up at Starbucks. Angry and fuming, I wore my highest heels and hopped on the auto that seemed would give me the bumpiest ride.
As I paced outside Starbucks waiting for Sumit, my mind oscillated between ‘Why me?’ to ‘What next?’ Sumit arrived somehow convinced that we should at least check the beta hcg report before concluding. The pessimist me sipped the coffee as he refreshed dr dang’s website for precisely the 12000th time. What followed were tears, which somehow still continue for different reasons.
Today, I sit here sipping my coffee in those minuscule my moments of sanity. And all I can say...life is truly amazing. Different times, different challenges but the pieces eventually fall in place together.
As my soul sister enters motherhood, my heart is filled with immense joy, love and a reinforced belief that it all works out in the end. I want her to know that while her whole self will revolve around the baby, she’s most special. There will be days when she feels a gush of love but there might be days when she feels inadequate or low. Just remember that there are no perfect mommies but just insanely in love women who have to take care of lil’ pieces of their hearts outside their body. Don’t forget the amazing you and take care of yourself since that’s the only way you can be the great mommy you’re meant to be.
For everything else, we’re right here.
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